In Memory of Our King of Pop

I am really shocked when i read the news titled "Michael Jackson dies". My goodness he was only 50 years old and I really thought he died young since he was so obsessed with staying young. Backfired maybe.

I grow up listening to his songs, watching his trademark dance move "Moonwalk" as well as immitating him. Although he did not release new songs after that I still love his oldies lots.

Alright sometimes I admit he's a jerk and court cases had been "daily routine" for him but heck, he's dead now and we should remember what he had given us.

Recalling yesterday morning, I was listening to his songs with iPod at office while he was dying! =S

R.I.P Our beloved King of Pop.

*Farrah Fawcett died too but I aint know nothing about her. RIP Farrah.

Our entertainment industry has suffered with double blows. :(

Ken's Review of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Went to Queensbay Mall during lunch time yesterday to buy a ticket (yes, i watched alone) for 7.50pm's movie and I got a slightly-in-front-place still. After all the wait I drove off to the mall from my office around 6.40pm and had some peeps and surveys for my new sports shoes.

After that I went to the cinema and my goodness the whole place was really packed. Expected anyway. We still cannot compare the crowds here in Penang and KL though. The cinema let us enter 5 minutes late and after all the crap ads we're in the movie! Weeehooo!!!

Alright, the movie is more humourous compared to the first one but there are really some annoying Autobots namely Mudflap and Skids or The Twins. I would prefer the movie being more serious and just some jokes added in.

Then the storyline is my main problem. I did not really understand the story actually.Perhaps I need to watch the second time to really understand it. Many small details were left out or simply narrated through. Anyhow I thought Bumblebee had his voice already, having shown at the end of the first movie but hell he's not now! Another thing, I bet you would not figure out who's fighting who and worse, who's Autobots and who's Decepticons! Oh my God!

It's time for the highlights of the movie. If you're a guy then you would probably love this movie for the hot women lol. Mikaela Banes got prettier and hotter in this movie and there's another gal called Isabel Lucas had the WOW factor too.

Secondly, and perhaps unarguably is the effects, both in visual and sound. I think this is the reason why we watch Transformers at cinemas haha. The budget for the movie was a whopping 200 million dollar and based on the effects shown, I was in awe how technology was so advanced nowadays. (I watched Terminator 1 few days ago and I couldn't help laughing).

Then this is it. I don't know whether you like this or not but for my case, yes I liked it. The creativity of the producers to change some of the character's origins. Check out Jetfire cos he's the most obvious. (with some Transformers knowledge on the EARLIST cartoon then you'll figure it out easily)

I would rate the movie 3 out of 5. Even the general reception is not that good. Obviously the sequel was not as nice as the prequel so I was actually a little disappointed but still this is a must watch movie. The movie was about two and a half hours so sit down and enjoy the movie!

Seriously...

Seriously I do not how hard to webcam.
Seriously I do not how hard to sms.
Seriously I do not how hard to facebook.
Seriously I do not how hard to make a phone call.
Seriously I do not how hard to email.
Seriously I do not how hard to msn.
Seriously I do not how hard to love a person.

But I know something...

Nearly everything I do, I think of her first, willingly.

But things get serious now.

She keeps saying about your physical appearance and personality and giving so many suggestions and complaints and telling you her ideal guy. I am trying hard to do it and as if she does not know. In fact, I cannot even get angry. I just need more from here to ease my pain, physically and mentally.

I admit I am a sensitive person and has many weaknesses but sometimes, loving a person mean accepting his/her flaws too. But in the mean time, both have to improve themselves.

I am truly tired now. So alone.

AUTOBOTS, ROLL OUT!

Hooray! today is the premiere of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen or the sequel of the first movie. I watched the first movie again yesterday to understand the story more clearly before going into the next one haha.

I am impressed by the CGI and am looking forward to the special effects in the next installment. Can't wait for the movie really.

KEN IS ROLLING!

Celebrating My 22 Birthday!

Today is such a special day. Later at 3.15pm I'll be officially twenty two years old. Also, I feel extra sleepy at the office today. Perhaps all you guys best wishes on the midnight hahaha! Anyhow thanks guys! I will post up the celebration tonight as soon as possible.

Anyhow i'm very glad that you called. Very sweet indeed. Thanks!

Thanks again guys and gals!

Work Work Work.........

I joined Philips Lumileds on 28th May 2008. I worked only 2 days then it's weekend and it was end of the month already. So they paid me like 300 bucks for sitting at the company haha.

I am given a task, to develop a program for the production line in Visual Basic 6, alone! Oh my goodness I learned that thing for just a semester and it's like 2 years ago! To make things worse, I only have 1 week to develop it, without my consent. My superior(I have many bosses actually)promised someone else without asking me. CRAZY!

Everyday I have to dig out the knowledge from books and the Internet. Hardly that I can find anybody that can teach me because I only have 2 colleagues and I believe that only one of them truly is a VB pro but he is not helfpul. Facebook and its applications, msn, reading news and bla bla bla most of the time. The other one is good to me and helps me alot but I'm not sure if she can help in in the programming part.

I just got bollocked over the chat room by a few bosses. Well they did not really scold me but it wasn't a relax conversation. I am not so sure how they work but they seem very committed to work and no joking when they are discussing work. While for me, I do not like it because I like to enjoy my work, better if I do it in a good mood. In that way I would be committed and happy at the same time :) However they are good people no worries hehe.

This is a real job and so I got a real job environment. The most important thing that I've learned so far is to PROTECT yourself. Everyone has to come up a plan to backup themselves. For programmers they create log files, non IT parts they come up with presentation slides and etc stating the reasons. While I do not prefer to call it a backup plan, I'd like say we have to responsible for everything we do. If you failed to finish something on time then you would have to explain everything.

The challenge is on... It's like watching Survivor on TV.



OUTWIT, OUTPLAY, OUTLAST(The survivor gets promoted?)

Is It Day 7, Or Not?

Day has become better for us. We hang out together on Friday last week and it was actually a nice day. She flew to Australia the next day and I went to the Penang airport to send her.

Alright she asked for breakup before but she got sweet after that. Could it be PMS, the culprit for everything? Or could it be that she simply could not imagine life without me beside her? I am not sure about that but anyway she's sweet.

I thought everything went back to normal but her recent actions got me back to disappointment. I hate any people that disappear without informing me in the first place and waste my time.

To make long story short, I really feel that I am loved little and I hope she can change at least a bit. Afterall, I have been trying to change, to be at my best, for her.

Love is a matter of 2 persons, a couple.

My friend even told me that she was not really that into me. Breakup is the wise thing to do but I cannot do that now. I love working on problems =P

Without You: Day 2

I am glad that I talked with you on msn yesterday. I could not helped myself anymore so I talked to you. The conversation cleared some misunderstanding. I thought you hated me and the relationship so you chose to end it but it was not after all.

However I still find it difficult to accept you as a friend. I would have suffered greatly if you tell me you've just went for a hot date or how sweet between you and your new boyfriend one day. Hope you understand.

But suddenly you gave me a glimmer of hope. We might still stand a chance after 3 years. At this moment I knew it was a chance so I wanted to be your friend. We will still be in contact and at least I am still in the race. If I had chosen the other path, everything would be over.

Then you took the hope away when we talked on the phone at night. I was hurted and acted like a crazy man. I hate myself when I am in rage. I do things without thinking. Sorry for that. I was truly hurted and spent my night talking to a friend until the wee hours.

I believe you do not know what you want or you cannot think clearly anymore or other reasons. I am confused because what you said and your action were contradicted. I thought we only choose to end a relationship (such as love is dead or it is useless to move on, probably he/she is not the one and won't be happily ever after) and no hope is given anymore. I do not know what you want and you put me under duress. But I still love you nonetheless.

Without You: Day 1 (2)

Saw her on msn but I could not talk to her. It's killing.

Cant concentrate in working.

It's fitting to sing "Can't Smile Without You" by Barry Manilow right now.

Without You: Day 1

Yesterday was one of the saddest life in my life. Breakup with you (officially) is a big regret in my life and I cannot do anything to save it. As you said, we cannot force ourselves especially love and I respect your decision though I really do not like it ends like that.

The biggest hurt is that I thought you had given me a chance. When I saw the word "dear" in your sms I thought we could patch up but it turned out not to be. Perhaps it was a typo error or spontaneous word came out from you. On my way home my phone played some songs that we shared together: Elton John's Your Song, Faye Wong's edition of Wishing We Last Forever(但願人長久), Simon and Garfunkel's Sound of Silence and etc. Hell, this was really hurt and I could not control my tears anymore.

I need to return all the stuffs that you have given me because I find them seriously breaking my heart. I chose to reject your present yesterday not out of disrespect but that present was supposed to be our 1 year anniversary present. I hope you understand this.

When I got home I did some cleaning job. Moving your messages into a hidden place and packing some other things that were given from you. I looked back some of our photos and I found a file even heartbreaking. It recorded the song that I sang to you over the internet. That was very saddening.

When I went to bed I could not help recalling our moments together. Though it's not much but happy. And some other things appeared too. How could I start anew when my surrounding and daily life was so much being affected by you. We sms-ed and talked on the phone, laughed and cried for Liverpool FC and etc. I even thought of supporting Manchester United or perhaps I should just quit football but I think I should better just die. At some point I hated you to death but it was too painful to take.

Life now is souless as a zombie. Woke up today and still feeling the pain in my heart. Could not laugh or cry anymore. Bathed then turned on Facebook to check her out. Suddenly I realized I shall not dwell on this anymore. Life goes on. I need to convert my pain into work, to work my ladder up.

Sorry I cannot be your friend now. I need time to heal the wounds. Perhaps we can be good friends in the future but I'm not so sure. I don't think I can take it if u went on to a hot date or found a partner.

Hope you know how deep my love is for you and how hurt it is because it's my first relationship. You'll be always on my mind. God bless you and I sincerely wish you all the best.