AUTOBOTS, ROLL OUT!

Hooray! today is the premiere of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen or the sequel of the first movie. I watched the first movie again yesterday to understand the story more clearly before going into the next one haha.

I am impressed by the CGI and am looking forward to the special effects in the next installment. Can't wait for the movie really.

KEN IS ROLLING!

Celebrating My 22 Birthday!

Today is such a special day. Later at 3.15pm I'll be officially twenty two years old. Also, I feel extra sleepy at the office today. Perhaps all you guys best wishes on the midnight hahaha! Anyhow thanks guys! I will post up the celebration tonight as soon as possible.

Anyhow i'm very glad that you called. Very sweet indeed. Thanks!

Thanks again guys and gals!

Work Work Work.........

I joined Philips Lumileds on 28th May 2008. I worked only 2 days then it's weekend and it was end of the month already. So they paid me like 300 bucks for sitting at the company haha.

I am given a task, to develop a program for the production line in Visual Basic 6, alone! Oh my goodness I learned that thing for just a semester and it's like 2 years ago! To make things worse, I only have 1 week to develop it, without my consent. My superior(I have many bosses actually)promised someone else without asking me. CRAZY!

Everyday I have to dig out the knowledge from books and the Internet. Hardly that I can find anybody that can teach me because I only have 2 colleagues and I believe that only one of them truly is a VB pro but he is not helfpul. Facebook and its applications, msn, reading news and bla bla bla most of the time. The other one is good to me and helps me alot but I'm not sure if she can help in in the programming part.

I just got bollocked over the chat room by a few bosses. Well they did not really scold me but it wasn't a relax conversation. I am not so sure how they work but they seem very committed to work and no joking when they are discussing work. While for me, I do not like it because I like to enjoy my work, better if I do it in a good mood. In that way I would be committed and happy at the same time :) However they are good people no worries hehe.

This is a real job and so I got a real job environment. The most important thing that I've learned so far is to PROTECT yourself. Everyone has to come up a plan to backup themselves. For programmers they create log files, non IT parts they come up with presentation slides and etc stating the reasons. While I do not prefer to call it a backup plan, I'd like say we have to responsible for everything we do. If you failed to finish something on time then you would have to explain everything.

The challenge is on... It's like watching Survivor on TV.



OUTWIT, OUTPLAY, OUTLAST(The survivor gets promoted?)

Is It Day 7, Or Not?

Day has become better for us. We hang out together on Friday last week and it was actually a nice day. She flew to Australia the next day and I went to the Penang airport to send her.

Alright she asked for breakup before but she got sweet after that. Could it be PMS, the culprit for everything? Or could it be that she simply could not imagine life without me beside her? I am not sure about that but anyway she's sweet.

I thought everything went back to normal but her recent actions got me back to disappointment. I hate any people that disappear without informing me in the first place and waste my time.

To make long story short, I really feel that I am loved little and I hope she can change at least a bit. Afterall, I have been trying to change, to be at my best, for her.

Love is a matter of 2 persons, a couple.

My friend even told me that she was not really that into me. Breakup is the wise thing to do but I cannot do that now. I love working on problems =P

Without You: Day 2

I am glad that I talked with you on msn yesterday. I could not helped myself anymore so I talked to you. The conversation cleared some misunderstanding. I thought you hated me and the relationship so you chose to end it but it was not after all.

However I still find it difficult to accept you as a friend. I would have suffered greatly if you tell me you've just went for a hot date or how sweet between you and your new boyfriend one day. Hope you understand.

But suddenly you gave me a glimmer of hope. We might still stand a chance after 3 years. At this moment I knew it was a chance so I wanted to be your friend. We will still be in contact and at least I am still in the race. If I had chosen the other path, everything would be over.

Then you took the hope away when we talked on the phone at night. I was hurted and acted like a crazy man. I hate myself when I am in rage. I do things without thinking. Sorry for that. I was truly hurted and spent my night talking to a friend until the wee hours.

I believe you do not know what you want or you cannot think clearly anymore or other reasons. I am confused because what you said and your action were contradicted. I thought we only choose to end a relationship (such as love is dead or it is useless to move on, probably he/she is not the one and won't be happily ever after) and no hope is given anymore. I do not know what you want and you put me under duress. But I still love you nonetheless.

Without You: Day 1 (2)

Saw her on msn but I could not talk to her. It's killing.

Cant concentrate in working.

It's fitting to sing "Can't Smile Without You" by Barry Manilow right now.

Without You: Day 1

Yesterday was one of the saddest life in my life. Breakup with you (officially) is a big regret in my life and I cannot do anything to save it. As you said, we cannot force ourselves especially love and I respect your decision though I really do not like it ends like that.

The biggest hurt is that I thought you had given me a chance. When I saw the word "dear" in your sms I thought we could patch up but it turned out not to be. Perhaps it was a typo error or spontaneous word came out from you. On my way home my phone played some songs that we shared together: Elton John's Your Song, Faye Wong's edition of Wishing We Last Forever(但願人長久), Simon and Garfunkel's Sound of Silence and etc. Hell, this was really hurt and I could not control my tears anymore.

I need to return all the stuffs that you have given me because I find them seriously breaking my heart. I chose to reject your present yesterday not out of disrespect but that present was supposed to be our 1 year anniversary present. I hope you understand this.

When I got home I did some cleaning job. Moving your messages into a hidden place and packing some other things that were given from you. I looked back some of our photos and I found a file even heartbreaking. It recorded the song that I sang to you over the internet. That was very saddening.

When I went to bed I could not help recalling our moments together. Though it's not much but happy. And some other things appeared too. How could I start anew when my surrounding and daily life was so much being affected by you. We sms-ed and talked on the phone, laughed and cried for Liverpool FC and etc. I even thought of supporting Manchester United or perhaps I should just quit football but I think I should better just die. At some point I hated you to death but it was too painful to take.

Life now is souless as a zombie. Woke up today and still feeling the pain in my heart. Could not laugh or cry anymore. Bathed then turned on Facebook to check her out. Suddenly I realized I shall not dwell on this anymore. Life goes on. I need to convert my pain into work, to work my ladder up.

Sorry I cannot be your friend now. I need time to heal the wounds. Perhaps we can be good friends in the future but I'm not so sure. I don't think I can take it if u went on to a hot date or found a partner.

Hope you know how deep my love is for you and how hurt it is because it's my first relationship. You'll be always on my mind. God bless you and I sincerely wish you all the best.

A New Liverpudlian Is Born

Right now, as of 4.45am, I am sitting in front my laptop, blogging. I have just watched a gruesome game between Chelsea and Liverpool. We lost 3-1 at home and we needed to win by 3 goals in order to progress. It was a very important game and both me and my gf watched the game in different corners of the world.

And as predicted, Liverpool failed to progress but they put a very good fight. Apparently 4-4 was not good enough for the Reds but it showed that we were evenly matched teams. We did not have any Abramoviches but the quality was in the team, just maybe not in depths.

My gf cried lots and lots after the game really and I had to console her lots and lots too haha. I knew exactly how she felt. Believing in the team she loved so lots that any defeats will simply ruin her days.

She is a young fan compared to me, who have watched football around 8 years already. I've gave up my tears and especially my sleeping time (ah ha!) for them (VERY TERRIBLE when Liverpool lose some more!). As I grow older, results are still important to me but I don't take that as life and death anymore. Some of the love in Liverpool simply have shifted to her and she gets all my attention now. Perhaps I was so so so crazy because I did not have any responsibilities to my other half.

I can tell all of u here how crazy she is, if not crazier. She reads every Liverpool news and she knows our next opponent and the time the game is played earlier than me. She cries for Liverpool which I have stopped long ago. Telling me lotsa Liverpool things and texting YNWA in our love sms some more! =P Sometimes I really jealous of Liverpool la.

A New Liverpudlian is born!

Actually when we first started I tried to minimize my Liverpool craziness simply because I afraid she did not like I stick to football too much. I thought a balance is needed. Yeah I influenced her to be a Red fan but I really did not know she would got so crazy. Anyhow, I really don't know what would happen if we got married. Shouting like crazy people in the house when Liverpool score. Terribly sorry for the kids because weekends belong to their crazy parents sticking to the tv and none for them. xD

One good thing about this is that she cannot laugh or tease me again cos she is doing everything I did. Deja vu?

Proof of her crying.

Bug in FM 2009!

Since when Theo Walcott plays for a weak side like Man Utd? And what kinda English (or programming) is that?! Wake up SI Games!

A Test

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Sound of Silence

Kheng Kim, a friend of mine, asked me whether I still blogged. I said yes but I was kinda lazy by then =P All of a sudden, the urge of blogging suddenly comes into my mind again hahaha. Thus I declare this blog will not die before I did =P Actually I have a few stories but perhaps I should keep them for the next postings.

Watched "Watchmen" with a few friends on Thursday. The movie was crap but the songs were really nice. One of the songs, titled "The Sound of Silence" really touched my soul. The last time I listened to it was really long ago and that served as a perfect opportunity to refresh my memory again haha.

Here it goes:



Yes it is really old but only great songs able to endure the challenge of time, am I right? ;D

Lyrics:


Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.

Thin and Thinner

I am already thin. Used to be so underweight and it has gone worse. 60kg for a 176cm made me like a walking skeleton in the past. Few weeks ago I weighed again and it had dropped to 59kg. I don't know why this is happening to me.

I have two jeans, a new and an old one. The old jean suits me perfectly while I need a belt for my new one. I found that my old jean is going to be just like my new jean this noon, meaning I am now lower than 59kg. ='(

I am getting thinner. I don't want this. Used a few methods to increase my appetite when I was young but it did not work at all. =/

I really really hate this. God please give me a few more kilograms =D

100 & 1

An amazing player with his amazing goal tally. This is Steven Gerrard of Liverpool and his 100th goal for Liverpool during the 3-1 victory against PSV Eindhoven at Anfield. Scoring a century of goals is uncommon when you are not playing as striker but Gerrard made it possible. This player has to be one of the most versatile player I've ever seen. He has played in almost every position other than the goalie. To add to his delight, his 100th goal is an absolute cracker.


People often said it is good to share your happiness so here comes Robbie Keane! This Irishman has been playing well but he did not find his goalscoring touch until this game (reminding me of Peter Crouch). His first ever goal for the club he supported since he was still a boy. I really enjoy his cartwheel celebration but this time around he is doing for my Liverpool!

The End

19 September 2008 - The Wrath of Love

This afternoon she suddenly asked for breakup and this really shocked me. While she said our thinking were just too different and she was crying lots rather than being happy with me so I had to accept this grueling fact, that was to let her go. I felt it was pity to end this but it would be the best if she could find a much much much better guy than I am. It was simply I could not fulfilling her needs often and left her in disappointment. I want her to be happy in life, not the other way round.

I guess the only thing that I REALLY regret is that it would be impossible for us even to be friends. She is a very good gal and it is God's grace to be her friends.

The wireless network here has been down for quite sometimes but somehow there is an unsecured network detected to let me blog to express my feelings. Thank you God.

Dear, I love you forever and ever.

My Studies So Far

This is my final year, Year 3, semester 1. This is one hell of a semester cos I have so many subjects to deal with and of course, the final year project.

I am very busy and I miss my sleep so much but the support from family and Dear really giving me that extra energy to go forward.

Furthermore I was hit by wrist injury so everything even went extra difficult. Some lecturers were really kind and helped me lots. Thank you all!

But then I did not do quite well in certain subjects, I need to buck up!

NO SACRIFICE, NO VICTORY

My Left Wrist

It was just my second game for SSPK FC and it was against South Lake from Desa Parkcity. I was down injured after just playing for few minutes. This time around I wore my temporary jersey with number 4 on my back. Was that an omen? I never believed anything like that.

I was chasing the ball with full throttle, I was going to tackle him but someone hit me from behind and I fell. Oh no, I used both my hands to protect my body but it was not the right thing to do. Aaarrgghh....my left wrist! It was deformed! It was really awful though I felt just little pain. Off I went to see the clinic nearby and the doctor said I needed to go to hospital. Nice uncles also from my football club helped me to drive and brought me home. Grandma was shocked and I was scolded for some time. Then my uncle brought the all of us to Damansara Specialist Hospital and the doctor was Dr. Gan Eng Cheng.

Accident should be around 6 and I was admitted almost 7 something and went in to operation room at 9. Done at 9.45 and spent a night in the freaking cold hospital. Cool, I had 4 hooks on the wrist and heavily bandaged for 5 weeks. What's best was the almost 9k operation and follow-ups costs. Sorry mum and dad for burning a hole in the pocket, I will surely study hard and pay back. I know the money is for the vacation and I promise I will sponsor the both of you to many places.

I wanna thank everyone who helped me along the way, uncle and his family, family and friends. I really can't thank you guys enough. I also wanna thank my Dear for being supportive and cared lots of me. Love u really.

So finally the hooks were taken out and signalled the end of my crazy and boring 5 weeks. But I still have to exercise my hand more or it won't move around smoothly. I'm scared. No more taxi! Woohoo! I can drive again!

Here's some pics and videos: (Not for faint-hearted LOL)

Why I'm so weird?

View 1

View 2

Taking Out the Hook 1

Taking Out the Hook 2

My 21st Birthday

Hello Ken, you are officially 21 now. You shall make your own decisions in your life and held liable for everything.

It was a happy day, or two days, cos I managed to celebrate this wonderful event with many of my closest family members.

The day before my big day, my uncle brought me, mum, Sue and his family to Souled Out to celebrate. We thoroughly enjoyed the delicious food and of course, wines. It's a pity that my Dad chose not to come but I did not blame him. He had insomnia and it was extra tough for him to sleep at someone's house. My girlfriend actually texted him asking him to come but it did not work out hehe. Thanks Dear for your great effort. Anyway I still received his sms and it made me feel good too. Oh right, I got Da Jie's wishes too. Love you Dad and Da Jie!

A Very Nice Place

Me, Sue and Mum. Dad and Da Jie in our hearts.

Then came my big day, I celebrated with my classmates at Albert's house. Thanks for the cards and the presents! Love them! Thanks everyone!

GUYS TEAM
Edward, Tuan Hui, Albert, Chongyi, Kok Foo, Boo Keat, Chin Hong
Birthday MAN and Yan Jian

GALS TEAM
Canny and Pau Ping with the Birthday MAN

Crossing My Fingers and WISH
Wish: I wanna be with my Dear forever, Family's Fine

More Photos: http://limszeyee.multiply.com/photos/album/2/Kens_21st_Bday (Souled Out)

P/S: I LOVE THE ALL OF YOU!

Back Blogging

Since my left wrist is much more better after some grueling 5 weeks, I am officially back to work here now. Lots of things to blog:

1) My 21st Birthday
2) My Left Wrist
3) My Studies So Far

LETTER TO LIVERPOOL FANS FROM LIAM'S FAMILY

Dear LFC,

I am writing to thank the supporters of Liverpool Football Club for making my son's last few days with us happy ones.

On April 17 he received a signed shirt along with other bits and bobs from your club after one of your fantastic fans got in touch. You offered for him to travel to Liverpool but he was too poorly to make the trip. When he received the shirt it was the first time I had seen him smile or seen his eyes shine in weeks.

Between your club and the fans you have supporting you, you made my son's last few weeks bearable and for that I am eternally grateful.

The banner that was shown during the first leg of the Liverpool v Chelsea semi-final was the second time the smile and glint in his eye returned. Seeing him lying in bed wearing his precious shirt are memories we will carry with us forever.

He was barely with us for the second leg but he watched as much as he could. At the end, he said 'the best team lost'.

Liam was diagnosed with Burkitt's disease (cancer) on February 21 and was in Newcastle RVI for intense chemotherapy. On March 28 we were told the treatment was working but then a week later we received the terrible news it had returned and there was nothing they could do. They gave him two weeks to live and he was with us for four. He passed away at 4pm on May 5.

He was a humble, brave and courageous 17-year old and I truly believe that along with his friends, family and his love of music, the signed shirt you sent gave him the strength to stay with us longer.

That is why, although it's hard, I wanted to write this letter of thanks to you all.

Liam said 'you only ever see the bad press about football and its fans but you never see this side, do you mum?' He's right. So, once again, thankyou from us all. A simple shirt made the world of difference to a young fan and his family.

Yours forever grateful,

Tracie (mum), Reuben (dad) and Paige (sister)

Ken's thoughts:
YNWA Liam Harker & Family.
Briliant Liverpool fans, keep it up!


All credits to Liverpoolfc.tv (http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/news/drilldown/N160420080707-0858.htm)

Hiatus

My left wrist is fractured and I am doing all work mostly with my right hand. Furthermore assignment's deadline and tests are just around in the corner so I officially announce this blog will go hiatus.

However, be warned, I WILL BE BACK!