Thursday, August 06, 2009
Dream Girl
There have been a few nights that I suddenly woke up, and felt sad. Simply because I dreamed of her, and she's not mine anymore. To make things worse, we always argue or acting just like very normal friends when we chat. Darn I feel so terrible.
Friday, July 17, 2009
I'm on this with her and I hate myself
A love-hate relationship is a personal relationship involving simultaneous or alternating emotions of love and enmity. Sometimes the person may love the other person/object, but hate oneself for it. This relationship does not have to be of a romantic nature, and may be instead of a sibling one. It may occur when people have completely lost the intimacy within a loving relationship, yet still retain some passion for, or perhaps some commitment to, each other.
The term it is used most frequently in psychology, popular writing and journalism, much more so than in everyday discourse, and almost never amongst the individuals of whom it is predicated. It can be extended to relationships with inanimate objects, or even concepts.[1] In popular journalism, it is often employed speculatively by writers to explain the relationship between celebrity couples who have been divorced, then who reunite (notably Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton or Eminem and Kimberly "Kim" Scott).
A related theme is "obligatory friendship", where usually one party feels indebted to another and forges a friendship but still holds a grudge over a particular past disappointment or set of disappointments, while the "creditor" in the relationship agrees to the nature of the relationship often for security reasons, but remains aware of the "debtor's" grudge and feels counter-indebted until the cause of the grudge is sufficiently overcome.
The concept is frequently used in teen romance novels where two characters are shown to hate each other but show some sort of affection or attraction towards each other at certain points of the story. The concept of a love-hate relationship is frequently used in teen novels to describe the romance between a good girl and a bad boy.
It can be argued that, due to the fact that the subjects love each other despite issues they have, a love hate relationship actually represents a stronger bond than a simple love relationship does. Also since a constant hatred is felt, any new issues which emerge are unlikely to put the relationship in jeopardy. However it is also true that real happiness may be attained from such a relationship as there would always be commitment and love for the other person as it existed even when the dislikes are known and accepted as part of relationship. This kind of relationship is also more likely to bring peace and contentment in life of those people.
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Acknowledgement:
Retrieved July 2, 2009, from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love-hate_relationship
The term it is used most frequently in psychology, popular writing and journalism, much more so than in everyday discourse, and almost never amongst the individuals of whom it is predicated. It can be extended to relationships with inanimate objects, or even concepts.[1] In popular journalism, it is often employed speculatively by writers to explain the relationship between celebrity couples who have been divorced, then who reunite (notably Elizabeth Taylor and Richard Burton or Eminem and Kimberly "Kim" Scott).
A related theme is "obligatory friendship", where usually one party feels indebted to another and forges a friendship but still holds a grudge over a particular past disappointment or set of disappointments, while the "creditor" in the relationship agrees to the nature of the relationship often for security reasons, but remains aware of the "debtor's" grudge and feels counter-indebted until the cause of the grudge is sufficiently overcome.
The concept is frequently used in teen romance novels where two characters are shown to hate each other but show some sort of affection or attraction towards each other at certain points of the story. The concept of a love-hate relationship is frequently used in teen novels to describe the romance between a good girl and a bad boy.
It can be argued that, due to the fact that the subjects love each other despite issues they have, a love hate relationship actually represents a stronger bond than a simple love relationship does. Also since a constant hatred is felt, any new issues which emerge are unlikely to put the relationship in jeopardy. However it is also true that real happiness may be attained from such a relationship as there would always be commitment and love for the other person as it existed even when the dislikes are known and accepted as part of relationship. This kind of relationship is also more likely to bring peace and contentment in life of those people.
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Acknowledgement:
Retrieved July 2, 2009, from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love-hate_relationship
Sunday, July 12, 2009
What's Up with FM2009?
Woot? Sami Hyypia can't speak basic English? You must be kidding me lol.
Want like that meh? Lol.
*Manager's name is hidden. A gal whom I have lots of respect.
p/s: Please enlarge the pictures for greater laugh xD
Hate is the power of the dark side
I've never seen a person that promised everything only for her to break all of them.
1- Have faith that we will go thru the long distance
2- Never say break up
... ...
How can a person can simply change so fast? It left me thinking so deeply.
How can I not be angry and disappointed when I made 20+ calls and only one of them being accepted? It's not that her phone was in silent mode! If she was me I'm sure she would get mad too.(Recalling the moment that she called me and gone mad cos I was sleeping in the bus from Genting)
A person that doesn't know how to love choose to break someone's heart. Pathetic isn't it?
HATE HATE HATE this kinda feeling. Being let down so badly and as if it was my fault.
Gotta buck up now already. I've gone crazy cos I've sent so many hate sms and messages lol
1- Have faith that we will go thru the long distance
2- Never say break up
... ...
How can a person can simply change so fast? It left me thinking so deeply.
How can I not be angry and disappointed when I made 20+ calls and only one of them being accepted? It's not that her phone was in silent mode! If she was me I'm sure she would get mad too.(Recalling the moment that she called me and gone mad cos I was sleeping in the bus from Genting)
A person that doesn't know how to love choose to break someone's heart. Pathetic isn't it?
HATE HATE HATE this kinda feeling. Being let down so badly and as if it was my fault.
Gotta buck up now already. I've gone crazy cos I've sent so many hate sms and messages lol
H1N1?
Came home on Friday with a minor sore throat, a little of dizziness and felt like I was gonna fever soon. However, I felt a little better yesterday. Thought I was gonna be ok until something happened in the evening that really troubled my sleep at night.
I felt cold and hot, sore throat was getting worse and was having minor flu already. I felt very terrible and so as my mood swung. I scolded anybody that I couldn't look into my eyes. Very sorry to mum, Sue and a gal. I did not mean to hurt anybody though.
Furthermore, two of my colleagues came back from USA not long ago. They seemed healthy I know but the virus can still infect the most healthy person. I will check with doctor tomorrow if I still did not get well.
H1N1 or just normal sickness, I don't give a damn. If God wanna me to visit Him I'll go with a happy heart. Lol =D
I felt cold and hot, sore throat was getting worse and was having minor flu already. I felt very terrible and so as my mood swung. I scolded anybody that I couldn't look into my eyes. Very sorry to mum, Sue and a gal. I did not mean to hurt anybody though.
Furthermore, two of my colleagues came back from USA not long ago. They seemed healthy I know but the virus can still infect the most healthy person. I will check with doctor tomorrow if I still did not get well.
H1N1 or just normal sickness, I don't give a damn. If God wanna me to visit Him I'll go with a happy heart. Lol =D
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Transformers is nowhere near "Great Movie"!
"Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen" made over $200 million last week. What it didn't make, however, was one lick of sense.
Now, suspension of disbelief is usually not a problem for me. Tell me that a billionaire could put on a bat suit and swoop around fighting crime and I'll buy it. Or that a different billionaire could build flying armor in his basement. Or that in the future people will beam onto spaceships with their pointy-eared best friend. I'll accept all of it. I'll even take your word for it that a mechanized alien race can come to our planet, scan some cars, and turn themselves into vehicles.
That being said, there were moments in this new "Transformers" movie that were so confusing, so contradictory, or so corny that they completely took me out of the movie. Even days after watching it, some new inconsistency or plot hole would pop into my mind.
I can hear it already: "It's a popcorn movie. It's based on a bunch of toys. It's just supposed to be fun." And yes, all of those things are true. But that doesn't mean I can't ask questions about what in the world was going on. Here are the ten that I most want answered. (WARNING: contains spoilers).
1. In "Transformers," there was this giant battle in the middle of downtown Los Angeles -- excuse me, Mission City -- that was witnessed by thousands of people at the very least. But somehow the government was able to cover up the whole thing, and now the existence of alien robots is just an internet rumor? How did they do it? Pay off everyone who was there and quickly fix millions of dollars in damage? Also, didn't Keller (Jon Voight) go on TV and tell everyone we were being attacked by "a technological civilization far superior to our own"? How did they spin that?
2. There are two pieces of the Allspark cube left: the military has one under lock and key, and Sam discovers another. The Decepticons steal one and bring Megatron back to life. But when Sam (Shia LaBeouf) wants to bring back Optimus, he has to find the Matrix of Leadership on the other side of the globe. Why not use the other piece? Mikaela (Megan Fox) has it in her backpack the whole time. It brought his kitchen appliances to life, why can't it do the same for Optimus?
3. Speaking of Megatron's rebirth, when the Decepticons venture deep into the ocean to revive him, the Navy crew tracking them reads five contacts. When they get down there, they tear apart one of the robots for parts to rebuild Megatron. Then as they rise to the surface, the same Navy guys say they spot six contacts. The little "Doctor" robot popped out down there, but he's about a third of the size of a person. Would he have shown up on sonar?
4. That reminds me: even if I were to forgive the Doctor's German accent -- and director Michael Bay is asking me to forgive a lot of ridiculous accents -- why would a robot need glasses? He has little lenses that flip in front of his mechanical eyes. Couldn't he just get his eyes adjusted? You'd think with all the laser guns, someone could perform a Lasik procedure.
5. Apparently, Transformers can look like people now. How? And how is it that even though the robo-girl (Isabel Lucas) is made of metal, she can still straddle Sam without crushing him. And if Bumblebee knows something's wrong with her, why does he spit antifreeze at her instead of telling Sam? Yes, his voicebox is broken, but wasn't it fixed at the end of the last movie?
6. The Fallen is the last of the Primes, since they all sacrificed themselves to stop him from destroying the sun. But then he says that Optimus is a descendant of the Primes. First, Transformers have kids? And second, how could he descend from them if they were all dead? And if the Fallen could only be destroyed by a Prime, why didn't the originals just gang up on him back in the day? And what makes Optimus so special, anyway? Megatron beat him earlier, but all it takes is a few spare parts from creaky old Jetfire for him to take out the Fallen?
7. Sam, Mikaela, and Simmons (John Turturro) go to the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum in Washington D.C. to find Jetfire. Then they walk out the back onto a wide open field with old planes and mountains in the distance. When did the National Mall start to look so much like to Tucson, AZ (where they really filmed that scene)?
8. The geography is just as bad when they go to Egypt. The stone city of Petra in Jordan is over 250 miles away, over mountainous terrain, with few paved roads and the Israeli border between them, so how can they drive from one to the other in a couple of hours. And the Pyramids are said to be shooting distance from the Mediterranean, but they are actually well over 80 miles inland. Even if the Navy ship had a secret rail gun, and even if the captain would take an order to fire from a former agent of a government branch that no longer exists (over a walkie-talkie that inexplicably starts working again), how could it hit a moving target from that distance?
9. Sam briefly dies and goes to Robot Heaven. Robot Heaven?!?!
10. Where does Sam's bandage come from? What about his extra sock? Why does Sam's roommate not contribute anything at all? What was the Fallen doing for those thousands of years Megatron was frozen in ice? How does one satellite receive transmissions from everywhere on the planet? Why does Wheelie hump Mikaela's leg? Why do we have to see John Turturro's thong? Why are robots who join together to become Devastator also seen fighting the Army at the same time? Why does the government want only our military fighting Decepticons when our weapons seem unable to make so much as a dent on any of them? Why did the ancient Egyptians build a pyramid around the sun-destroying machines instead of just breaking it? Why is the Matrix of Leadership bigger in the Fallen's hand than in Sam's? And how do Mikaela's pants stay so clean?
OK, so I went overboard at the end, but the questions remain. And I'm sure more will pop up next time I think about the movie. But the movie did make a ton of money, and it's earned a solid B+ rating from our users. Maybe I should go see it again. My questions probably won't get answered in a second viewing, but if I can just clear them from my mind I can be in Robot Heaven, too.
Acknowledgement:
Matt McDaniel(2009, June 30). Burning Questions: The 10 Most Confusing Things in 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen'. Retrieved July 2, 2009, from http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/smg-transformers-10-questions.html
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And yeah, even me can figure out some loopholes in the movie. I don't really examine a movie unless I love it until to its core (like The Lord of the Rings!) but Transfomers 2: Revenge of the Fallen is way too ridiculous. Some of the questions above might need some assumptions to answer it though. For example, in Question 4, the robo-girl (Pretender) might be able to transform itself in the aspect of appearance and weight. Anyway they are some technology advanced creatures, they can do anything, aren't they? But then, this proves only one thing, the movie is lousy!
I like the first movie although it does not explain what happened to the other Decepticons in the end. And this time, we did not know what happen to Wheelie, Arcee and etc. Actually there's still more questions about the movie but it really takes time to compile them all lol. I'm not trying to prove anything, I'm just watching the movie from a normal movie fan's point of view. And mind you, I do know a thing or two about Transformers! =P
Now, suspension of disbelief is usually not a problem for me. Tell me that a billionaire could put on a bat suit and swoop around fighting crime and I'll buy it. Or that a different billionaire could build flying armor in his basement. Or that in the future people will beam onto spaceships with their pointy-eared best friend. I'll accept all of it. I'll even take your word for it that a mechanized alien race can come to our planet, scan some cars, and turn themselves into vehicles.
That being said, there were moments in this new "Transformers" movie that were so confusing, so contradictory, or so corny that they completely took me out of the movie. Even days after watching it, some new inconsistency or plot hole would pop into my mind.
I can hear it already: "It's a popcorn movie. It's based on a bunch of toys. It's just supposed to be fun." And yes, all of those things are true. But that doesn't mean I can't ask questions about what in the world was going on. Here are the ten that I most want answered. (WARNING: contains spoilers).
1. In "Transformers," there was this giant battle in the middle of downtown Los Angeles -- excuse me, Mission City -- that was witnessed by thousands of people at the very least. But somehow the government was able to cover up the whole thing, and now the existence of alien robots is just an internet rumor? How did they do it? Pay off everyone who was there and quickly fix millions of dollars in damage? Also, didn't Keller (Jon Voight) go on TV and tell everyone we were being attacked by "a technological civilization far superior to our own"? How did they spin that?
2. There are two pieces of the Allspark cube left: the military has one under lock and key, and Sam discovers another. The Decepticons steal one and bring Megatron back to life. But when Sam (Shia LaBeouf) wants to bring back Optimus, he has to find the Matrix of Leadership on the other side of the globe. Why not use the other piece? Mikaela (Megan Fox) has it in her backpack the whole time. It brought his kitchen appliances to life, why can't it do the same for Optimus?
3. Speaking of Megatron's rebirth, when the Decepticons venture deep into the ocean to revive him, the Navy crew tracking them reads five contacts. When they get down there, they tear apart one of the robots for parts to rebuild Megatron. Then as they rise to the surface, the same Navy guys say they spot six contacts. The little "Doctor" robot popped out down there, but he's about a third of the size of a person. Would he have shown up on sonar?
4. That reminds me: even if I were to forgive the Doctor's German accent -- and director Michael Bay is asking me to forgive a lot of ridiculous accents -- why would a robot need glasses? He has little lenses that flip in front of his mechanical eyes. Couldn't he just get his eyes adjusted? You'd think with all the laser guns, someone could perform a Lasik procedure.
5. Apparently, Transformers can look like people now. How? And how is it that even though the robo-girl (Isabel Lucas) is made of metal, she can still straddle Sam without crushing him. And if Bumblebee knows something's wrong with her, why does he spit antifreeze at her instead of telling Sam? Yes, his voicebox is broken, but wasn't it fixed at the end of the last movie?
6. The Fallen is the last of the Primes, since they all sacrificed themselves to stop him from destroying the sun. But then he says that Optimus is a descendant of the Primes. First, Transformers have kids? And second, how could he descend from them if they were all dead? And if the Fallen could only be destroyed by a Prime, why didn't the originals just gang up on him back in the day? And what makes Optimus so special, anyway? Megatron beat him earlier, but all it takes is a few spare parts from creaky old Jetfire for him to take out the Fallen?
7. Sam, Mikaela, and Simmons (John Turturro) go to the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum in Washington D.C. to find Jetfire. Then they walk out the back onto a wide open field with old planes and mountains in the distance. When did the National Mall start to look so much like to Tucson, AZ (where they really filmed that scene)?
8. The geography is just as bad when they go to Egypt. The stone city of Petra in Jordan is over 250 miles away, over mountainous terrain, with few paved roads and the Israeli border between them, so how can they drive from one to the other in a couple of hours. And the Pyramids are said to be shooting distance from the Mediterranean, but they are actually well over 80 miles inland. Even if the Navy ship had a secret rail gun, and even if the captain would take an order to fire from a former agent of a government branch that no longer exists (over a walkie-talkie that inexplicably starts working again), how could it hit a moving target from that distance?
9. Sam briefly dies and goes to Robot Heaven. Robot Heaven?!?!
10. Where does Sam's bandage come from? What about his extra sock? Why does Sam's roommate not contribute anything at all? What was the Fallen doing for those thousands of years Megatron was frozen in ice? How does one satellite receive transmissions from everywhere on the planet? Why does Wheelie hump Mikaela's leg? Why do we have to see John Turturro's thong? Why are robots who join together to become Devastator also seen fighting the Army at the same time? Why does the government want only our military fighting Decepticons when our weapons seem unable to make so much as a dent on any of them? Why did the ancient Egyptians build a pyramid around the sun-destroying machines instead of just breaking it? Why is the Matrix of Leadership bigger in the Fallen's hand than in Sam's? And how do Mikaela's pants stay so clean?
OK, so I went overboard at the end, but the questions remain. And I'm sure more will pop up next time I think about the movie. But the movie did make a ton of money, and it's earned a solid B+ rating from our users. Maybe I should go see it again. My questions probably won't get answered in a second viewing, but if I can just clear them from my mind I can be in Robot Heaven, too.
Acknowledgement:
Matt McDaniel(2009, June 30). Burning Questions: The 10 Most Confusing Things in 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen'. Retrieved July 2, 2009, from http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/smg-transformers-10-questions.html
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And yeah, even me can figure out some loopholes in the movie. I don't really examine a movie unless I love it until to its core (like The Lord of the Rings!) but Transfomers 2: Revenge of the Fallen is way too ridiculous. Some of the questions above might need some assumptions to answer it though. For example, in Question 4, the robo-girl (Pretender) might be able to transform itself in the aspect of appearance and weight. Anyway they are some technology advanced creatures, they can do anything, aren't they? But then, this proves only one thing, the movie is lousy!
I like the first movie although it does not explain what happened to the other Decepticons in the end. And this time, we did not know what happen to Wheelie, Arcee and etc. Actually there's still more questions about the movie but it really takes time to compile them all lol. I'm not trying to prove anything, I'm just watching the movie from a normal movie fan's point of view. And mind you, I do know a thing or two about Transformers! =P
Friday, June 26, 2009
In Memory of Our King of Pop
I am really shocked when i read the news titled "Michael Jackson dies". My goodness he was only 50 years old and I really thought he died young since he was so obsessed with staying young. Backfired maybe.
I grow up listening to his songs, watching his trademark dance move "Moonwalk" as well as immitating him. Although he did not release new songs after that I still love his oldies lots.
Alright sometimes I admit he's a jerk and court cases had been "daily routine" for him but heck, he's dead now and we should remember what he had given us.
Recalling yesterday morning, I was listening to his songs with iPod at office while he was dying! =S
R.I.P Our beloved King of Pop.
*Farrah Fawcett died too but I aint know nothing about her. RIP Farrah.
Our entertainment industry has suffered with double blows. :(
I grow up listening to his songs, watching his trademark dance move "Moonwalk" as well as immitating him. Although he did not release new songs after that I still love his oldies lots.
Alright sometimes I admit he's a jerk and court cases had been "daily routine" for him but heck, he's dead now and we should remember what he had given us.
Recalling yesterday morning, I was listening to his songs with iPod at office while he was dying! =S
R.I.P Our beloved King of Pop.
*Farrah Fawcett died too but I aint know nothing about her. RIP Farrah.
Our entertainment industry has suffered with double blows. :(
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Ken's Review of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
Went to Queensbay Mall during lunch time yesterday to buy a ticket (yes, i watched alone) for 7.50pm's movie and I got a slightly-in-front-place still. After all the wait I drove off to the mall from my office around 6.40pm and had some peeps and surveys for my new sports shoes.
After that I went to the cinema and my goodness the whole place was really packed. Expected anyway. We still cannot compare the crowds here in Penang and KL though. The cinema let us enter 5 minutes late and after all the crap ads we're in the movie! Weeehooo!!!
Alright, the movie is more humourous compared to the first one but there are really some annoying Autobots namely Mudflap and Skids or The Twins. I would prefer the movie being more serious and just some jokes added in.
Then the storyline is my main problem. I did not really understand the story actually.Perhaps I need to watch the second time to really understand it. Many small details were left out or simply narrated through. Anyhow I thought Bumblebee had his voice already, having shown at the end of the first movie but hell he's not now! Another thing, I bet you would not figure out who's fighting who and worse, who's Autobots and who's Decepticons! Oh my God!
It's time for the highlights of the movie. If you're a guy then you would probably love this movie for the hot women lol. Mikaela Banes got prettier and hotter in this movie and there's another gal called Isabel Lucas had the WOW factor too.
Secondly, and perhaps unarguably is the effects, both in visual and sound. I think this is the reason why we watch Transformers at cinemas haha. The budget for the movie was a whopping 200 million dollar and based on the effects shown, I was in awe how technology was so advanced nowadays. (I watched Terminator 1 few days ago and I couldn't help laughing).
Then this is it. I don't know whether you like this or not but for my case, yes I liked it. The creativity of the producers to change some of the character's origins. Check out Jetfire cos he's the most obvious. (with some Transformers knowledge on the EARLIST cartoon then you'll figure it out easily)
I would rate the movie 3 out of 5. Even the general reception is not that good. Obviously the sequel was not as nice as the prequel so I was actually a little disappointed but still this is a must watch movie. The movie was about two and a half hours so sit down and enjoy the movie!
After that I went to the cinema and my goodness the whole place was really packed. Expected anyway. We still cannot compare the crowds here in Penang and KL though. The cinema let us enter 5 minutes late and after all the crap ads we're in the movie! Weeehooo!!!
Alright, the movie is more humourous compared to the first one but there are really some annoying Autobots namely Mudflap and Skids or The Twins. I would prefer the movie being more serious and just some jokes added in.
Then the storyline is my main problem. I did not really understand the story actually.Perhaps I need to watch the second time to really understand it. Many small details were left out or simply narrated through. Anyhow I thought Bumblebee had his voice already, having shown at the end of the first movie but hell he's not now! Another thing, I bet you would not figure out who's fighting who and worse, who's Autobots and who's Decepticons! Oh my God!
It's time for the highlights of the movie. If you're a guy then you would probably love this movie for the hot women lol. Mikaela Banes got prettier and hotter in this movie and there's another gal called Isabel Lucas had the WOW factor too.
Secondly, and perhaps unarguably is the effects, both in visual and sound. I think this is the reason why we watch Transformers at cinemas haha. The budget for the movie was a whopping 200 million dollar and based on the effects shown, I was in awe how technology was so advanced nowadays. (I watched Terminator 1 few days ago and I couldn't help laughing).
Then this is it. I don't know whether you like this or not but for my case, yes I liked it. The creativity of the producers to change some of the character's origins. Check out Jetfire cos he's the most obvious. (with some Transformers knowledge on the EARLIST cartoon then you'll figure it out easily)
I would rate the movie 3 out of 5. Even the general reception is not that good. Obviously the sequel was not as nice as the prequel so I was actually a little disappointed but still this is a must watch movie. The movie was about two and a half hours so sit down and enjoy the movie!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Seriously...
Seriously I do not how hard to webcam.
Seriously I do not how hard to sms.
Seriously I do not how hard to facebook.
Seriously I do not how hard to make a phone call.
Seriously I do not how hard to email.
Seriously I do not how hard to msn.
Seriously I do not how hard to love a person.
But I know something...
Nearly everything I do, I think of her first, willingly.
But things get serious now.
She keeps saying about your physical appearance and personality and giving so many suggestions and complaints and telling you her ideal guy. I am trying hard to do it and as if she does not know. In fact, I cannot even get angry. I just need more from here to ease my pain, physically and mentally.
I admit I am a sensitive person and has many weaknesses but sometimes, loving a person mean accepting his/her flaws too. But in the mean time, both have to improve themselves.
I am truly tired now. So alone.
Seriously I do not how hard to sms.
Seriously I do not how hard to facebook.
Seriously I do not how hard to make a phone call.
Seriously I do not how hard to email.
Seriously I do not how hard to msn.
Seriously I do not how hard to love a person.
But I know something...
Nearly everything I do, I think of her first, willingly.
But things get serious now.
She keeps saying about your physical appearance and personality and giving so many suggestions and complaints and telling you her ideal guy. I am trying hard to do it and as if she does not know. In fact, I cannot even get angry. I just need more from here to ease my pain, physically and mentally.
I admit I am a sensitive person and has many weaknesses but sometimes, loving a person mean accepting his/her flaws too. But in the mean time, both have to improve themselves.
I am truly tired now. So alone.
AUTOBOTS, ROLL OUT!
Hooray! today is the premiere of Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen or the sequel of the first movie. I watched the first movie again yesterday to understand the story more clearly before going into the next one haha.
I am impressed by the CGI and am looking forward to the special effects in the next installment. Can't wait for the movie really.
KEN IS ROLLING!
I am impressed by the CGI and am looking forward to the special effects in the next installment. Can't wait for the movie really.
KEN IS ROLLING!
Friday, June 19, 2009
Celebrating My 22 Birthday!
Today is such a special day. Later at 3.15pm I'll be officially twenty two years old. Also, I feel extra sleepy at the office today. Perhaps all you guys best wishes on the midnight hahaha! Anyhow thanks guys! I will post up the celebration tonight as soon as possible.
Anyhow i'm very glad that you called. Very sweet indeed. Thanks!
Thanks again guys and gals!
Anyhow i'm very glad that you called. Very sweet indeed. Thanks!
Thanks again guys and gals!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Work Work Work.........
I joined Philips Lumileds on 28th May 2008. I worked only 2 days then it's weekend and it was end of the month already. So they paid me like 300 bucks for sitting at the company haha.
I am given a task, to develop a program for the production line in Visual Basic 6, alone! Oh my goodness I learned that thing for just a semester and it's like 2 years ago! To make things worse, I only have 1 week to develop it, without my consent. My superior(I have many bosses actually)promised someone else without asking me. CRAZY!
Everyday I have to dig out the knowledge from books and the Internet. Hardly that I can find anybody that can teach me because I only have 2 colleagues and I believe that only one of them truly is a VB pro but he is not helfpul. Facebook and its applications, msn, reading news and bla bla bla most of the time. The other one is good to me and helps me alot but I'm not sure if she can help in in the programming part.
I just got bollocked over the chat room by a few bosses. Well they did not really scold me but it wasn't a relax conversation. I am not so sure how they work but they seem very committed to work and no joking when they are discussing work. While for me, I do not like it because I like to enjoy my work, better if I do it in a good mood. In that way I would be committed and happy at the same time :) However they are good people no worries hehe.
This is a real job and so I got a real job environment. The most important thing that I've learned so far is to PROTECT yourself. Everyone has to come up a plan to backup themselves. For programmers they create log files, non IT parts they come up with presentation slides and etc stating the reasons. While I do not prefer to call it a backup plan, I'd like say we have to responsible for everything we do. If you failed to finish something on time then you would have to explain everything.
The challenge is on... It's like watching Survivor on TV.
OUTWIT, OUTPLAY, OUTLAST(The survivor gets promoted?)
I am given a task, to develop a program for the production line in Visual Basic 6, alone! Oh my goodness I learned that thing for just a semester and it's like 2 years ago! To make things worse, I only have 1 week to develop it, without my consent. My superior(I have many bosses actually)promised someone else without asking me. CRAZY!
Everyday I have to dig out the knowledge from books and the Internet. Hardly that I can find anybody that can teach me because I only have 2 colleagues and I believe that only one of them truly is a VB pro but he is not helfpul. Facebook and its applications, msn, reading news and bla bla bla most of the time. The other one is good to me and helps me alot but I'm not sure if she can help in in the programming part.
I just got bollocked over the chat room by a few bosses. Well they did not really scold me but it wasn't a relax conversation. I am not so sure how they work but they seem very committed to work and no joking when they are discussing work. While for me, I do not like it because I like to enjoy my work, better if I do it in a good mood. In that way I would be committed and happy at the same time :) However they are good people no worries hehe.
This is a real job and so I got a real job environment. The most important thing that I've learned so far is to PROTECT yourself. Everyone has to come up a plan to backup themselves. For programmers they create log files, non IT parts they come up with presentation slides and etc stating the reasons. While I do not prefer to call it a backup plan, I'd like say we have to responsible for everything we do. If you failed to finish something on time then you would have to explain everything.
The challenge is on... It's like watching Survivor on TV.
OUTWIT, OUTPLAY, OUTLAST(The survivor gets promoted?)
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Is It Day 7, Or Not?
Day has become better for us. We hang out together on Friday last week and it was actually a nice day. She flew to Australia the next day and I went to the Penang airport to send her.
Alright she asked for breakup before but she got sweet after that. Could it be PMS, the culprit for everything? Or could it be that she simply could not imagine life without me beside her? I am not sure about that but anyway she's sweet.
I thought everything went back to normal but her recent actions got me back to disappointment. I hate any people that disappear without informing me in the first place and waste my time.
To make long story short, I really feel that I am loved little and I hope she can change at least a bit. Afterall, I have been trying to change, to be at my best, for her.
Love is a matter of 2 persons, a couple.
My friend even told me that she was not really that into me. Breakup is the wise thing to do but I cannot do that now. I love working on problems =P
Alright she asked for breakup before but she got sweet after that. Could it be PMS, the culprit for everything? Or could it be that she simply could not imagine life without me beside her? I am not sure about that but anyway she's sweet.
I thought everything went back to normal but her recent actions got me back to disappointment. I hate any people that disappear without informing me in the first place and waste my time.
To make long story short, I really feel that I am loved little and I hope she can change at least a bit. Afterall, I have been trying to change, to be at my best, for her.
Love is a matter of 2 persons, a couple.
My friend even told me that she was not really that into me. Breakup is the wise thing to do but I cannot do that now. I love working on problems =P
Friday, June 12, 2009
Without You: Day 2
I am glad that I talked with you on msn yesterday. I could not helped myself anymore so I talked to you. The conversation cleared some misunderstanding. I thought you hated me and the relationship so you chose to end it but it was not after all.
However I still find it difficult to accept you as a friend. I would have suffered greatly if you tell me you've just went for a hot date or how sweet between you and your new boyfriend one day. Hope you understand.
But suddenly you gave me a glimmer of hope. We might still stand a chance after 3 years. At this moment I knew it was a chance so I wanted to be your friend. We will still be in contact and at least I am still in the race. If I had chosen the other path, everything would be over.
Then you took the hope away when we talked on the phone at night. I was hurted and acted like a crazy man. I hate myself when I am in rage. I do things without thinking. Sorry for that. I was truly hurted and spent my night talking to a friend until the wee hours.
I believe you do not know what you want or you cannot think clearly anymore or other reasons. I am confused because what you said and your action were contradicted. I thought we only choose to end a relationship (such as love is dead or it is useless to move on, probably he/she is not the one and won't be happily ever after) and no hope is given anymore. I do not know what you want and you put me under duress. But I still love you nonetheless.
However I still find it difficult to accept you as a friend. I would have suffered greatly if you tell me you've just went for a hot date or how sweet between you and your new boyfriend one day. Hope you understand.
But suddenly you gave me a glimmer of hope. We might still stand a chance after 3 years. At this moment I knew it was a chance so I wanted to be your friend. We will still be in contact and at least I am still in the race. If I had chosen the other path, everything would be over.
Then you took the hope away when we talked on the phone at night. I was hurted and acted like a crazy man. I hate myself when I am in rage. I do things without thinking. Sorry for that. I was truly hurted and spent my night talking to a friend until the wee hours.
I believe you do not know what you want or you cannot think clearly anymore or other reasons. I am confused because what you said and your action were contradicted. I thought we only choose to end a relationship (such as love is dead or it is useless to move on, probably he/she is not the one and won't be happily ever after) and no hope is given anymore. I do not know what you want and you put me under duress. But I still love you nonetheless.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Without You: Day 1 (2)
Saw her on msn but I could not talk to her. It's killing.
Cant concentrate in working.
It's fitting to sing "Can't Smile Without You" by Barry Manilow right now.
Cant concentrate in working.
It's fitting to sing "Can't Smile Without You" by Barry Manilow right now.
Without You: Day 1
Yesterday was one of the saddest life in my life. Breakup with you (officially) is a big regret in my life and I cannot do anything to save it. As you said, we cannot force ourselves especially love and I respect your decision though I really do not like it ends like that.
The biggest hurt is that I thought you had given me a chance. When I saw the word "dear" in your sms I thought we could patch up but it turned out not to be. Perhaps it was a typo error or spontaneous word came out from you. On my way home my phone played some songs that we shared together: Elton John's Your Song, Faye Wong's edition of Wishing We Last Forever(但願人長久), Simon and Garfunkel's Sound of Silence and etc. Hell, this was really hurt and I could not control my tears anymore.
I need to return all the stuffs that you have given me because I find them seriously breaking my heart. I chose to reject your present yesterday not out of disrespect but that present was supposed to be our 1 year anniversary present. I hope you understand this.
When I got home I did some cleaning job. Moving your messages into a hidden place and packing some other things that were given from you. I looked back some of our photos and I found a file even heartbreaking. It recorded the song that I sang to you over the internet. That was very saddening.
When I went to bed I could not help recalling our moments together. Though it's not much but happy. And some other things appeared too. How could I start anew when my surrounding and daily life was so much being affected by you. We sms-ed and talked on the phone, laughed and cried for Liverpool FC and etc. I even thought of supporting Manchester United or perhaps I should just quit football but I think I should better just die. At some point I hated you to death but it was too painful to take.
Life now is souless as a zombie. Woke up today and still feeling the pain in my heart. Could not laugh or cry anymore. Bathed then turned on Facebook to check her out. Suddenly I realized I shall not dwell on this anymore. Life goes on. I need to convert my pain into work, to work my ladder up.
Sorry I cannot be your friend now. I need time to heal the wounds. Perhaps we can be good friends in the future but I'm not so sure. I don't think I can take it if u went on to a hot date or found a partner.
Hope you know how deep my love is for you and how hurt it is because it's my first relationship. You'll be always on my mind. God bless you and I sincerely wish you all the best.
The biggest hurt is that I thought you had given me a chance. When I saw the word "dear" in your sms I thought we could patch up but it turned out not to be. Perhaps it was a typo error or spontaneous word came out from you. On my way home my phone played some songs that we shared together: Elton John's Your Song, Faye Wong's edition of Wishing We Last Forever(但願人長久), Simon and Garfunkel's Sound of Silence and etc. Hell, this was really hurt and I could not control my tears anymore.
I need to return all the stuffs that you have given me because I find them seriously breaking my heart. I chose to reject your present yesterday not out of disrespect but that present was supposed to be our 1 year anniversary present. I hope you understand this.
When I got home I did some cleaning job. Moving your messages into a hidden place and packing some other things that were given from you. I looked back some of our photos and I found a file even heartbreaking. It recorded the song that I sang to you over the internet. That was very saddening.
When I went to bed I could not help recalling our moments together. Though it's not much but happy. And some other things appeared too. How could I start anew when my surrounding and daily life was so much being affected by you. We sms-ed and talked on the phone, laughed and cried for Liverpool FC and etc. I even thought of supporting Manchester United or perhaps I should just quit football but I think I should better just die. At some point I hated you to death but it was too painful to take.
Life now is souless as a zombie. Woke up today and still feeling the pain in my heart. Could not laugh or cry anymore. Bathed then turned on Facebook to check her out. Suddenly I realized I shall not dwell on this anymore. Life goes on. I need to convert my pain into work, to work my ladder up.
Sorry I cannot be your friend now. I need time to heal the wounds. Perhaps we can be good friends in the future but I'm not so sure. I don't think I can take it if u went on to a hot date or found a partner.
Hope you know how deep my love is for you and how hurt it is because it's my first relationship. You'll be always on my mind. God bless you and I sincerely wish you all the best.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
A New Liverpudlian Is Born
Right now, as of 4.45am, I am sitting in front my laptop, blogging. I have just watched a gruesome game between Chelsea and Liverpool. We lost 3-1 at home and we needed to win by 3 goals in order to progress. It was a very important game and both me and my gf watched the game in different corners of the world.
And as predicted, Liverpool failed to progress but they put a very good fight. Apparently 4-4 was not good enough for the Reds but it showed that we were evenly matched teams. We did not have any Abramoviches but the quality was in the team, just maybe not in depths.
My gf cried lots and lots after the game really and I had to console her lots and lots too haha. I knew exactly how she felt. Believing in the team she loved so lots that any defeats will simply ruin her days.
She is a young fan compared to me, who have watched football around 8 years already. I've gave up my tears and especially my sleeping time (ah ha!) for them (VERY TERRIBLE when Liverpool lose some more!). As I grow older, results are still important to me but I don't take that as life and death anymore. Some of the love in Liverpool simply have shifted to her and she gets all my attention now. Perhaps I was so so so crazy because I did not have any responsibilities to my other half.
I can tell all of u here how crazy she is, if not crazier. She reads every Liverpool news and she knows our next opponent and the time the game is played earlier than me. She cries for Liverpool which I have stopped long ago. Telling me lotsa Liverpool things and texting YNWA in our love sms some more! =P Sometimes I really jealous of Liverpool la.
A New Liverpudlian is born!
Actually when we first started I tried to minimize my Liverpool craziness simply because I afraid she did not like I stick to football too much. I thought a balance is needed. Yeah I influenced her to be a Red fan but I really did not know she would got so crazy. Anyhow, I really don't know what would happen if we got married. Shouting like crazy people in the house when Liverpool score. Terribly sorry for the kids because weekends belong to their crazy parents sticking to the tv and none for them. xD
One good thing about this is that she cannot laugh or tease me again cos she is doing everything I did. Deja vu?
Proof of her crying.
And as predicted, Liverpool failed to progress but they put a very good fight. Apparently 4-4 was not good enough for the Reds but it showed that we were evenly matched teams. We did not have any Abramoviches but the quality was in the team, just maybe not in depths.
My gf cried lots and lots after the game really and I had to console her lots and lots too haha. I knew exactly how she felt. Believing in the team she loved so lots that any defeats will simply ruin her days.
She is a young fan compared to me, who have watched football around 8 years already. I've gave up my tears and especially my sleeping time (ah ha!) for them (VERY TERRIBLE when Liverpool lose some more!). As I grow older, results are still important to me but I don't take that as life and death anymore. Some of the love in Liverpool simply have shifted to her and she gets all my attention now. Perhaps I was so so so crazy because I did not have any responsibilities to my other half.
I can tell all of u here how crazy she is, if not crazier. She reads every Liverpool news and she knows our next opponent and the time the game is played earlier than me. She cries for Liverpool which I have stopped long ago. Telling me lotsa Liverpool things and texting YNWA in our love sms some more! =P Sometimes I really jealous of Liverpool la.
A New Liverpudlian is born!
Actually when we first started I tried to minimize my Liverpool craziness simply because I afraid she did not like I stick to football too much. I thought a balance is needed. Yeah I influenced her to be a Red fan but I really did not know she would got so crazy. Anyhow, I really don't know what would happen if we got married. Shouting like crazy people in the house when Liverpool score. Terribly sorry for the kids because weekends belong to their crazy parents sticking to the tv and none for them. xD
One good thing about this is that she cannot laugh or tease me again cos she is doing everything I did. Deja vu?
Proof of her crying.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Bug in FM 2009!
Since when Theo Walcott plays for a weak side like Man Utd? And what kinda English (or programming) is that?! Wake up SI Games!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
A Test
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
The Sound of Silence
Kheng Kim, a friend of mine, asked me whether I still blogged. I said yes but I was kinda lazy by then =P All of a sudden, the urge of blogging suddenly comes into my mind again hahaha. Thus I declare this blog will not die before I did =P Actually I have a few stories but perhaps I should keep them for the next postings.
Watched "Watchmen" with a few friends on Thursday. The movie was crap but the songs were really nice. One of the songs, titled "The Sound of Silence" really touched my soul. The last time I listened to it was really long ago and that served as a perfect opportunity to refresh my memory again haha.
Here it goes:
Yes it is really old but only great songs able to endure the challenge of time, am I right? ;D
Lyrics:
Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.
Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.
Watched "Watchmen" with a few friends on Thursday. The movie was crap but the songs were really nice. One of the songs, titled "The Sound of Silence" really touched my soul. The last time I listened to it was really long ago and that served as a perfect opportunity to refresh my memory again haha.
Here it goes:
Yes it is really old but only great songs able to endure the challenge of time, am I right? ;D
Lyrics:
Hello darkness, my old friend,
Ive come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.
Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisperd in the sounds of silence.
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